Breaking Down

I agree with YaYa this whole dating scene is a waste of time at this point. My new man meat has not picked up the phone in a week to say anything and this is after we hooked up one evening after work, I cooked and he slept over - sorry fans no sex!

Anyway it has been a week and I don't know what the deal is. I broke down and called him three days ago and his phone line was busy. By the way, he does not have an answering machine at home nor does he have a cell phone - for those of you more experienced than me please tell me what that means.

I mean I thought I had really found someone that was worthy of my attention. Like I could spend some time drooling over him and not get too worked up about making a complete ass of myself. But after this kind of disregard I don't think I want to ever hear from him again. Yet the brother that I am not interested in is that one that I hear from almost everyday although his reasons for calling are pretty damn obvious.

I am falling behind on this pilgrimage and am in danger of just stopping all together. I can't go on!!! What makes men act the way they do? I would rather he called once after our date and said "you know, Onika, I really don't think this is going to work out, your cooking is atrocious and I don't like women that eat in bed." I could have dealt with a phone call like that.

I could have dealt with the thought that the man was just not interested but to be completely ignored is far beyond me. I can feel myself regressing, my buddy-boy-friend is looking really good right now.

Someone through me a line.